senslessechoes

senslessechoes @ 2007-01-29T10:36:00

2007-01-29T15:45:22Z

im a sucker for a beautiful girl..

It's dipset Bitch

There it go
Baby don't stop now
There it go
Baby don't stop now

There it go
Damn shorty look good and i'm thinkin bout gettin at her (okay)
Time to whistle at her
Aye girl you make my whistle blow

There it go
Bring it here baby
There it go
Bring it here baby

Top down and im at it again
It's hot now and i'm at it to win
(you heard me)
Who want it with me
Nobody wanna it with me
Oh im so fly
Oh Mami come n get me
Sit it down
Back up
Bring it on back up
Move it till you feel something hard on your back (Ugh)

There it go
If u want it come and get it
I aint kiddin im wit it
Here it go (go)
So Girl LET ME SEE YOU GET LOW
There it go
Yea jus like that
Move your thang like a boomarang
And come right back
There it go
I dont need to ask i proceed to grab
A chiks up my G'd up swagger

There it go
[whistling]
There it Go
Damn shorty look good and i'm thinkin bout gettin at her (okay)
Time to whistle at her
Aye girl you make my whistle blow

There it go
Bring it here baby (c'mon)
There it go
Bring it here baby (c'mon)

Aye girl let me see you get low
There it go
Set it down baby
There it go
Set it down baby

There it go its dipset (ohh)
There it go Aye Aye Aye
There it go its dipset (ohh)
There it go Aye Aye Aye

I got to get it
I'm so hot terrific
So not fair to the other guyz to sin it
I know not unlimit
Theres no skys a limit
Till then
Imma do imma do imma do ma thang
So baby keep moving moving n moving your thang
And that'll keep you n you n you in the ring (or maybe not)

Aye girl you make me want to know
You do it like a pro lil lady
If so bring it here let it show lil lady
There it go
Lets go lil lady to the crib, to the tele
You kno lil lady

Run
Yes girl
Uhm yes you can have a
Confess girl to the sunset girl (girl)
But first i gotta Undress girl
So take off dem clothes and UNdress Girl

There it go
[whistling]
There it Go
Damn shorty look good and i'm thinkin bout gettin at her (okay)
Time to whistle at her
Aye girl you make my whistle blow

There it go
Bring it here baby (c'mon)
There it go
Bring it here baby (c'mon)

Aye girl let me see you get low
There it go
Set it down baby
There it go
Set it down baby

senslessechoes @ 2006-12-01T02:50:00

2006-12-01T07:50:51Z

Was i out of my head, was i out of my mind. How could i have been so blind? Tell me why I've got to feel this way. Forgive me dear for my misdirection. As I crawl beneath this torture you adore I fall face to face with my scars you've ignored. I drink myself of newfound pity.
Sitting alone in New York City and I don't know why. Tell me all your thoughts on God? 'Cause I would really like to meet her and ask her why we're who we are. I didn't ask. Well maybe I don't want to take advice from fools. Well i never pray. But tonight I'm on my knees yeah.
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me. Yeah, let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now, but the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now. I can't change, I can't change, but I'm here in my mind. I am here in my mind and I'm a million different people from one day to the next. I can't change my mind. I would swallow my pride. I would choke on the rhines, but the lack thereof would leave me empty inside. I would swallow my doubt turn it inside out find nothing but faith in nothing. I want to put my tender heart in a blender. Watch it spin around to a beautiful oblivion. This angry boy may be a bit too insane. Icing over a secret pain? I know i dont belong. I'm the first to fight. I'm way too loud. I'm the flash of light on a burial shroud. Well everyone I know has got a reason to say put the past away. All the words that I've been reading have now started the act of bleeding into one. So I walk up on high and I step to the edge to see my world below. And now I laugh at myself while the tears roll down 'cause it's the world I know. All I can say is that my life is pretty plain. I like watchin' the puddles gather rain and all I can do is just pour some tea for two and speak my point of view. But it's not sane. It's not sane. I just want some one to say to me, "I'll always be there when you wake." They say," Slip inside the eye of your mind. Don't you know you might find a better place to play." I'm gonna start a revolution from my bed. I'm not gonna look back in anger. I'm movin forward. It's a great escape. Gonna live and let my light shine down. Maybe one day it will let me tell the story of a girl...

Maybe you're gonna be the one that saves me.

senslessechoes @ 2006-11-26T18:24:00

2006-11-26T23:24:38Z

Need to stop all this partying and do some actual work. Next semester is going to be alot different...gotta start settling down.

senslessechoes @ 2006-10-28T17:28:00

2006-10-28T17:40:27Z

Absolutely... these girls are awesome... Especially one... hope it doesnt end... Cant stop wont stop from the bottom to the top... uh uh.. uh uh

So 1, 2, 3, take my hand and come with me
because you look so fine
and i really wanna make you mine.

I say you look so fine
that I really wanna make you mine.

Oh, 4,5,6 c'mon and get your kicks
now you dont need that money
when you look like that, do ya honey.

Big black boots,
long brown hair,
she's so sweet
with her get back stare.

Well I could see,
you home with me,
but you were with another man, yea!
I know we,
ain't got much to say,
before I let you get away, yea!
I said, are you gonna be my girl?

senslessechoes @ 2006-10-15T07:02:00

2006-10-15T07:33:59Z

So i really don't know what's goin on in my life..one minute im happy as shit and the next I listen to a song and i get to thinking again, and it's not even about good things. You listen to one Yellowcard song and all the sudden you are thinking like some emo faggot... I hav so much fun when im with my friends but then i go home and i lay there and think about how i fucked my life up .... i can't sleep... i fight with myself... i lay here and think about all the things i had, might have had, and wanted to have, and the only thing i see is how i took the wrong path. I see all the friends i've lost, all the great girls that could have been, and all the mentors that could have helped me along the way. what do i have to show for it, nothing. Yeah i have some great friends, like Ricky who would do anything for me and i would do the same for him, but im not diversifying. I know my friends, their friends, and a few randoms, I dont have a girlfriend and apparently i can't attract the right type of girl, and the only person i could possibly thin kof as being a mentor to me is someone that really doesn't knwo me. I dont know what it is im not depressed per se but i deffinately dont feel 100%. I feel empty i guess. I have a shell of a life but i dont have the inner workings. I want more, bnut i dont knwo what i wnat. I wnat friends that ae there to back me up anytime, but are also there when i need to be kept in check. I want a girlfriend taht needs me but but doesnt suffocate me and has a personality and knows when to use it. And i want someone to look up to that will actually remember my name even without meeting him/her more tha nonce a week. Im rambling but i need to say it... IDK im exhausted though and im sure i forgot something so we will continue thsi tomorrow...peace ninja

Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Climbing higher through the fire, time was running out
Never knowing you weren't going to be coming down alive
But you still came back for me

senslessechoes @ 2006-01-30T15:39:00

2006-01-30T20:52:21Z

Shit weeks been pretty crazy so far, first week of classes, a week of rush events, weekend work, school work, and partying. First week of classes went by pretty smoothly it doesnt seem like any of them are going to be to difficult. Im not to worried about them just looking to keep my GPA around a 3.4 im not going to kill myslef for the 4.0 its just not worth it. Rush week was pretty insane too, a week of straight fun and shit. Guys are all cool over at the house and some of the rushes are pretty cool too. Weekend work sucked as usual but at least i got my new cell. Thing is fuckin bad ass. MP3 player, V-cast video, Transflash card, broadband capability, bluetooth compatible, what else could you ask for on a phone. Only thing that sucks is if i wanna keep the V-cast i have to pay 15 bucks a month. So idk if ill keep it after the first month of freeness. Met some cool girls one recently and one a couple weeks ago i just never mentioned. Met this one girl....well technically i haven't met her but i have been talkin to her...shes pretty awesome. Met another girl at TKE house like a week ago or so shes pretty cool and fun so im gonna get to talking to her. Tryin to get another grl back into my life too cause shes fuckin awesome but i think i fucked things up with that...who knows we'll see hwo that shit works

senslessechoes @ 2006-01-22T21:35:00

2006-01-23T02:36:02Z

Wow it's been awhile since I have written in this thing. Heres the newestt news however. One my Florida vaykay was somewhat beat and somewhat good. It was good cos I got to see family that I love and chilax with them for a little and do some cool shit, like going gambling at hardrock hotel and casino, and going to Universal and Islands of Adventure. However, it was also kinda beat cos my uncle and aunt were workin most of the time, two of my coses were at school most of the day and my other cos was off at work most of the time gayyyy. Two i just got back to school yesterday and i was tryin to party it up since i went a whole month without bein at good ol Rowan, but noone was really feelin it. I made 4 gallons of the hunch punch and me and steve were like the only ones drinkin it...LAME....then we hit up this DZ party....wow what a big sausage/fat chick fest....and the only cute grl there worth talking to calls in reinforcements after hello...WTF mate....it was just a hello. Whatever the fuck ever though. Anyway thats pretty much it..i mean i could go into detail but why bore you and my audience with shit as details. O and ive come to the conclusion that some grls are lame as fuck and some grls are tight...SWEET..
peace ninja --josepi--

Here we go again, motherfucker

Come on down, and see the idiot right here
Too fucked to beg and not afraid to care
What's the matter with calamity anyway?
Right? Get the fuck outta my face
Understand that I can't feel anything
It isn't like I wanna sift through the decay
I feel like a would, like I got a fuckin'
Gun against my head, you live when I'm dead

One more time, mother fucker

Everybody hates me now, so fuck it
Blood's on my face and my hands, and I
Don't know why, I'm not afraid to cry
But that's none of your business
Whose life is it? Get it? See it? Feel it? Eat it?
Spin it around so i can spit in its face
I wanna leave without a trace
Cuz I don't wanna diein this place

People = Shit
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit

It never stops - you can't be everything to everyone
Contagion - I'm sittin' at the side of Satan
What do you want from me?
They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Overdo it - don't tell me you blew it
Stop your bitchin' and fight your way through it
I'M - NOT - LIKE - YOU - I - JUST - FUCK - UP

People = Shit
People = Shit (Whatcha gonna do?)
People = Shit (Cuz I am not afraid of you)
People = Shit (I'm everything you'll never be)
People = Shit

senslessechoes @ 2006-01-08T19:40:00

2006-01-09T00:52:13Z

fuckin a..what a crazy weekend..cept today..today waas pretty gay the only thing that went on was my grandparents coming to eat food..haha...and the panthers rocking the faggy giants...anyway the weekend...friday night was cool went to see Hostel...let me tell you that movie is the shit...fuckin funny, creepy, gory, all kinds of shit, and it was even better because i was planning on going backpackin, now i know one place not to go...SLOVAKIA...ahaha...after that i wanted to get nice and gussied up but we didnt of course..we had to wake up early to catch the train into the city anyway....so saturday we get there right and steve was late of course cos he over slept and missed his train ....so we had to walk around for an hour b4 we could really do anything...so we walked a little went into a couple stores and then went back to penn to get his stupid ass...so he finally gets there and we are tryin to think of shit to do and we decide to go see the chrysleer building...not realizing it was on like 3rd and lexington, halfway across fuckin town, but we started to walk then stopped at tkts to see if we could see a show....
when we got close though this dude was selling tickets for an improv show....and they were real cheap so we bought those instead...then continued to the chrysler building, went through grand central which was cool, then got there and couldnt even go up in it or anything, how gay, so we walked back to saks, and walked up from 42nd to 60th where central park is...walked through there a bit then went to jekyl and hyde on 57th and 7th , which was pretty fun, that was dinner, then we walked up each side of boradway, then back up to 53rd and 8th for the comedy show at improv ....where we drank a bit and steve and brett got made fun of....then we came home on the train....the show was funny as shit though. It was good stuff...i enjoy wlaking around the city and goin to shows and shit.

Fuck......

And you don't talk to anyone. And you won't look at anyone but her.
And I don't think she's listening. I doubt she remembers your name.

And you say, when will she notice me? And you feel like you're gonna break.
And you say, when will she notice me? And it feels like a hand grenade.

Man I'll never understand, everyone's living in the past.
Instead of forgetting her, you're always kissing her ass.

And you say, when will she notice me? And you feel like you're gonna break.
And you say, when will she notice me? And it feels like a hand grenade.

I know that there's not much to say, so I'll look stupid anyway.

And you don't talk to anyone. And you won't look at anyone but her.
And I don't think she's listening, but you still play that game.
But I think the best way of moving on is to attack,
'Cause she's just a hand grenade, so pull out the pin and throw it back.

And you say, when will she notice me? And you feel like you're gonna break.
And you say, when will she notice me? And it feels like a hand grenade.
Like a hand grenade.

I know that there's not much to say, so I'll look stupid anyway.

Like a hand grenade, like a hand grenade, a hand grenade.

senslessechoes @ 2006-01-04T01:41:00

2006-01-04T06:59:18Z

k..so i dont think that things went all that well today. I mean overall i guess it was a good day i got out of the house finally, but i feel kind of alone i guess in a way. Im soooooo bored... Anyway, i should get my truck back tomorrow which will hopefully spice things up a bit. I havent really been able to go anywhere so being able to get out of the house and do anything is looking great right about now. We will see what tomorrow brings....
out --jeff

senslessechoes @ 2006-01-02T22:51:00

2006-01-03T03:58:30Z

i forgot to add something. I no longer have multiple girls on my mind. I have come to the realization that the girls i was interested are not interested in me. Its a good hint to take. However, in my branching out i think i may have found quite posiibly a girl that would actually be worth getting to really know. I can not divulge the specifics of the situation but things seem to be going smoothly. We will see how they develop.

P.S. she is to beautiful for words
(which probably means i dont have a chance..hahahaha)
I think im a nice guy though so lets see what happens

senslessechoes @ 2006-01-02T22:25:00

2006-01-03T03:50:25Z

Holy shit i haven't writeen anything in like over a month. I've been real busy though so i guess ill just start from where i left off. So thanksgiving weekend.... Ok i dont even remember what else happeend that weekend so let me tell you a little about december. December was crazy finishing up with work because i was taking off for a month, trying to get ready for finals(which i aced of course), shopping for christmas presents, get some of my stuff together to bring back home, it was a pretty busy month. so about work i had decided to take a month off instead of transferring back up here then transferring back when it was time to go bakc to good ol rowan, it was just easier to request the time off. They tried to give me a hard time at first but i wasnt gonna let em because i requested the month off back in october so they cnat say they didnt know. It worked out well though i made some good friends there and my bosses are pretty easy going i def got them eatin out my my hand. Not looking forward to going back on the 22nd though..haha...seems so close yet so far. I think my finals went well also, well i mean i got good final grades, i really just kinda breezed through my finals i wasnt worried, im pretty smart so i did the necessary studying but i didnt kill myself. Im only waiting on one more grade i have 3 b+'s so far and i believe my last one will be an A but who really knows. School is awesome i cant wait to go back. I dont even mind the work its the atmosphere that makes it the shit.
Wow so christmas shopping was way hardcore this year. I spent way to much money and ya know what i didnt even buy that many people presents. I spent over 600 dollars and only got like 9 or 10 people presents. Avg 60 dollars a person wtf is that..lol...it was all for a good cause though im glad i got presents for the people i did. I went all over the place looking for presents though which was tough for me...i mean i like shopping(no im not gay, i like money and i like to spend it becuase you cant take it with you)but going to a thousand different stores in like 8 different malls when people are going crazy looking for shit....not my thing. Whatever though i got it done and everyoen liked there presents so its all good, although i should have waited to do my shopping till i got home. My truck was so packed on the way back to TR it was nuts. Stupid school and stupid shady cleaning people i should be able to leave all of my crap there.
Christmas was the shit went to my aunts house for some good eatin and card games and such. My sister wasnt able to handle her liqour and passed out(me and my aunt stuck it out like champs..lol).i got alot of good presents and spent some quality time with the cousin so i would have to say that it was the best christmas in awhile.
New years was straight nasty. back to good old porzios we went. so many good memories from that house. Check out the pics on webshots(they arent the most flattering).
O yeah my cousin came up from FL too that was cool. I took her into the city. Her and her Bf really liked that, we did alot of cool things. Subway rides, empire state building , chinatown, little italy, 5th avenue, puma store, adidas store, lunch at espn zone(great food by the way), and the train ride. you can check out those pics on webshots too.
I cant wait for more to happen.
this is a bit long and i got more to say but ill just leave it for another day.
peace
--jeff

senslessechoes @ 2005-11-29T10:18:00

2005-11-29T15:30:17Z

As I had predicted thanksgiving weekend was crazy. So wednesday i had work right, which sucked because i was only supposed to be there until 6 but of course people had to call out and my Zone asked me to stay a little later. So i ended up there till about 7 pm and didnt make my way home until about 8, haha i was flying. it should take me about an hour and 15 minutes to get home, i made it in a little less than an hour. So whatever i finally got home said hi to my mom and sister then headed up to my cousins at like 9. When i got there i was trying to get him ready to go paintballing at Skirmish but the kid had liek no warm clothes, and of course no stroes were open by the time i figured that out. So we eneded up doing nothing that night but going to applebees and getting some appetizers and watching Dane Cook. So whateve i guess wed was kind of a bust but thursday, man was thursday good. Thanksgiving dinner was fuckin amazing, soooooooooooooooo much food to eat. haha. Hung out with brittany later on in the night for a little, but she wasnt much fun she was just kinda like blah or whatever. Then brett came down because he was coming paintballing with us and we just hung out for a little then went to bed early. Pretty much the only reason Thursday was bangin was because of the food. I love thanksgiving food. Now on to friday. Had to freakin wake up at like 530 to go to Skirmish which sucked balls cos its like a 2 and a half hour drive. But when we got there it was a shitload of fun even though i was gettin lit up liek the entire time. I was just having fun going crazy though. Fuck it whatever, i was diving all over the place. i have to write the rest later cos my hand hurts from typing. Later.

senslessechoes @ 2005-11-21T18:43:00

2005-11-22T00:19:16Z

Long weekend ahead of me.
Wednesday is home and the cousins to see HARRY POTTER,
Thursday is thanksgiving at the G-parents how i love those fools,
Friday is Skirmish USA which is gonna fuckin rock again,
Saturday is FRANKIES night with Momma dukes and the other kids,
Sunday im chillaxin cos i got off from work somehow,
then theres the drive back to ROWAN(o how exciting that should be),

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However last weekend will be hard to beat.
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Thursday Brett came right, and eveything was cool we chilled a little went to philly, got lost somehow, drove back lol, then drank some, got yelled at by Alex cos hes a bitch, then drank some more and basically just ate and played PS2 all night. Suprisingly it was fun though.

Then..

Friday night, o what a night this was. So steves friends come right, and my goal for the night was to get everyone drunk haha, and of course being the champ that i am succeeded. WE drank like a litre of vodka, plus about a quarter litre of malibu and that was all before we even went out. Then we went over to the townhouses...holy shit what a weird ass party that was. Tim, the kids house it was, is a cool kid though. Man there were girls makin out with each other, makin out with every guy in the room, dancin for dollars, strippin for dollars, it was just a crazy place. by the way i did give up some dollars..lol. This wasnt even the end of the night either. After that we headed over to the TKE house cos the guys said they were throwing that night, but by the time we got there they were pushing people out and Fernando didnt have enough bands for all of us to stay for the after party so we just decided to hit up WAWA....of course...like every other drunk kid..haha....so we get WAWA then make the trek back to my place for our own little after party. Man did we drink alot of beer between the four of us playing beer pong..i think we finally stopped and went to bed at like 4 am...crazy crazy night that was...Steve's friends (niki and Jeff) were cool though they partied like champs.

Then..

Saturday night i drank AGAIN..why you ask....o no reason just to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with uncontrollable laughter....yeah craziness i know...it was cool though got to hang out wiht some people that i dont usually hang out with...namely jess, jackie, new steve, dan, and deanna....i like them all we just dont usually get to hang out together so it was fun.....HOLY SHIT i almost forgot ...let me tell you about the events prior to the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory watching....so we go to Applebee's right and the lady says well it should be about 40 minutes, and i know in TR that really means 20 so i was like w/e...so we are waiting and waiting...and yeah still waiting.....we were waiting for an hour an 55 minutes before the table they "wanted" us to sit at was open...meanwhile people with a slightly larger party who cmae in after us got seated about 45 minutes earlier..WTF mate...then we sit down and are already pissed off ....we think the waitress was scared of us..haha.....so we order right and jess gets a full size salad...that was the size of like my toe nail...i was like ok...so we got that taken off the bill then got a free salad to go.....then..yeah theres more....ya know the blondies they serve well they are supposed to be served hot on a skillet....dan got his cold on a plate....lol.....are you serious?....crazy shit

Then...

Sunday......well sunday sucked cos i worked....but what are you gonna do....

ill leave it for next time
missed her this weekend....what can i say im weak sometimes

peace
~jeff

senslessechoes @ 2005-11-16T23:09:00

2005-11-17T04:51:35Z

First things first....

AAR - ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS were fuckin AWESOME! last night. The Academy Is... and Rooney were damn good too but AAR fuckin ruled.

Ok now for my b/s-ing....
Fuckin AWESOME night, good times with good people, some of my favs. too. So we, being me, steph, elyse, sean and steve went to the Rise of the Fall Tour show at the Electric Factory last night and as i said it was AWESOME! We tried to get smashed before going in but i guess 6 litres of malibu and orange juice just was not enough for the 5 of us, i knew we should have gotten more. We still had fun though even though like nobody was moving...damn teenie bopper kids..all they did was jump around. So after the concert we go to get cheesesteaks at Jim's and they fuckin go skimmpy on the whiz man....the WHIZ.....the fuckin steaks SUCKED! So we eneded up coming back to Rowan and that was the end of that night. Well i mean i got to spend more time with my FAV after that but i mean like nothing else crazy happened, although we are pretty crazy together.

Uh...lets see what else...o yeah Brett's comin tomorrow which should be FUN times..i know like everyone hates him and shit..but Fuck what everyone else thinks...im my own person and i think hes funny as shit cos hes a big douche...everyone else hates him for it..lol....It should be good times. Conway is supposed to come this weekend too lets see if she actually shows up this time..haha...so dependable that one....love her though...def a BFF...even though the whole time she went out with RICK...i hooked them up by the way.....she didnt ever talk to me...that was like two years and shit...w/e....I cant wait to see how this weekend goes

Cant wait for Thanksgiving either....cos that whole 4 days is gonna be nuts with all the shit im doing...i dont wanna give it away though..so ill save it for another time....

Time for bed...i leave you with this though.....two songs...one my fav AAR song....and two...one for some one special.....its not the whole song by the way..just random lines

"Top Of The World"

[Verse 1]
Is there anybody out there?
That wakes up with a bitter taste?
It's a king that we put up there
And he's a short way to fall from grace
It's slowly filling upward.
You can stand but you have no ground.
I hear it from the lost words.
They say it's time that you lost your crown.

[Chorus]
Don't be so greedy.
A dollar's a penny to you
When hearts are beating
Say what you want 'em to do.
Wasting away... I see you.
When the top of the world falls on you
Finding a day, don't wanna be you
When the top of the world falls on you

[Verse 2]
Is there anybody out there?
That can see what a man can change?
It's better that you don't care
Because he knows that he's in his state
I feel the paranoia.
When there's a time, put you in your place
In the eyes of those who watch ya
Well they can wait 'til you hit your face

[Chorus]
Don't be so greedy.
A dollar's a penny to you
When hearts are beating
Say what you want 'em to do.
Wasting away... I see you.
When the top of the world falls on you
Finally a day, don't wanna be you.
When the top of the world falls on you

Paint yourself a picture
When you waste another picture
And you win, and you win, and you win
Paint yourself a picture
And then you break another picture
And you win, and you win, and you win
And you win, yeah you win, and you win

[Chorus]
Don't be so greedy
A dollar's a penny to you
When hearts stop beating
Say what you want 'em to do
Wasting away... I see you
When the top of the world falls on you
Finding a day, don't wanna be you
When the top of the world falls on you

Wasting away... I see you
When the top of the world falls on you
Finding a day, don't wanna be you
When the top of the world falls on you

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Shes the one you see.
What more can I say?

Perfect in every way.

I know I'm young.
She's smart. I'm dumb.

This is for the girl who defines beauty.

I can't see why everytime I see her,
I go weak in the knees.

My time with you my dreams came true,

This is for the girl who defines beauty.

I cant see why everytime I see her,
I go weak in the knees.

senslessechoes @ 2005-11-10T00:28:00

2005-11-10T06:23:52Z

I think that some people may be reading this and not know who im talking about, which was kinda the point but to clarify things here dont assume that you know what you are reading.

Arite i guess im in a weird mood right now, im a little tired, but a little wired and i guess im just typing to take up time before i calm down and pass the fuck out.

Your heartbeat is getting louder drowning out the sound of the rain.

I AM SO BORED RIGHT NOW!!!!

Ah, fuck it im going to bed.

Remember dont assume!

senslessechoes @ 2005-11-07T17:09:00

2005-11-07T22:44:22Z

Ok well first its been awhile which sucks because i have a lot to say and i just dont know how to do it. It was a crazy couple weeks there. I had a shit load of work to do which is still continuing through this week, work was sucking up alot of my life and with Halloween and all i was just trying to get out there and have some fun. Which i did, and believe me it was plenty. So about the week before halloween things were going good i guess, i mean the cool girl, yeah i really dont think that she likes me so much anymore. Not that i knew she did in the first place, but i mean i hardly ever talk to her. Its really not a big deal though because i still only think about one person, even though i know nothing will EVER happen, i just like to think about it...SO SCREW YOU I CAN DREAM IF I WANT...haha. Yeah, so i havent talked to her too much over the past couple of weeks so im thinking that things are gonna drop off with that, but like i said i like to dream, and plus just hanging out with the dream girl makes everything better because we have shit loads of fun doing whatever, or well at least i think we do. No im pretty sure we do. Ok well that was that week so lets move forward to the next week the week of halloween weekend, now that was a crazy week. I had lots of work to do, and it sucked cos everyoen was liek "o im doing this this and this for halloweeen" and i had nothing planned i was like WTF MATE. And on top of all that i had to work the weekend, morning shifts no less so i had to be in early. It turned out not to be to bad though. I went out with a good friend of mine and we had a really good time. We ended up at some house in philly, im not sure where it was or who even owned the house, but it was a pretty sweet time. I got a little sick, but i appologized for that...oops...puking on philly streets is not always good. Yeah and i had to work that weekend also and uh lets just say i felt liek DEATH when i went into work because i seriosuly got 3 hours of sleep. Im pretty sure i was still drunk when i went in. It wasnt too too bad though i got some wawa and that made it a little better, at least i coudl see straight after that. Im a bad boy. Anyway lets fastforward to the next week now. which would actually pretty much be this week considering its monday, and the week just ended. I have to say that the lat week and weekend were pretty awesome. I got to just relax alot with friends and do some pretty cool stuff. Got to play wallyball which was insane. ( She got hurt!!!!!) i know its not funny... dude seriously spiked the ball right at her and liek basically all i could do is say "are you ok? " couldnt help her like i wanted to because i guess it might have seemed strange. Shes tough though, she shook it off, gotta love that. ok ok i admit it was semi amusing because after alll she is the smallest one there. I mean this guy was like 7 foot and he picks on the girl thats under 5 foot. HAHA. Ok so besides wallyball, i got to play racquetball too which was nuts. I dont think we were playing it right but i made up my own rules and it worked out pretty awesomely so i got no complaints. Hmm let me think what else did i do. O yeah thursday night i had a party in the room which was crazy, flip cup beer pong, circle of death, and papa johns is the way to go. And then of course i worked the weekend, which i actually didnt mind because well i worked the afternoon shit or closeing shift or whatever you want to call it, and i didnt have to wake up early, i mean i couldnt do anything all day becasue i was at work but, what are you gonna do. It either wake up early and suffer or go in late and party at night and wake up late. Choices choices choices. HAHA. Ok im done i got a wrist cramp, and theres too many people talking to me on AIM.
Fuck yo couch,
~jeff

song of the moment

The Academy is... Almost Here

So listen up. (So listen up)
I worked in daylight feeding fashion to housewives.
For just this once. (For just this once)
I'll take my chances at truck stops and state lines.

Go ahead and tell them again.
Well I think that I know that they won't remember
Go out and tell them twice.
Yeah, twice is nice, but three times is just right.

Hey, hey, now we're almost home.
I'm missing you to death but it's all for the best I know.
Hey, hey, we're not far from home.
I've got my pride, and I'll let you sleep tonight.

So listen up. (So listen up)
My old friends have been dropping like houseflies.
The smoking gun still sits in my pocket and I know how to use it.

Go ahead and tell them again.
Well I think that I know that I won't forgive them
For turning their backs when we started to get busy.
Well yeah twice is fine but three times is just right.

Hey, hey, now we're almost home.
I'm missing you to death but to each his own.
Hey, hey, we're not far from home.
I've got my pride, and I'll let you sleep tonight.
Hey, hey, now we're almost home.
I'm missing you to death, missing you to death.
hey, hey we're not far from home.
I'll swallow my pride and push back my seat tonight.

I'm on my feet, I'm on my feet, I'm on my feet.
I'm on my feet, (this isn't like us anyway)
I'm on my feet, (this isn't like us anyway)
I'm on my feet, (this isn't like us anyway)

I'm running,

Our time is almost,
Our time is almost here. (This isn't like us anyway)
[7x]

P.S. Extremely excited about NOV. 15th

senslessechoes @ 2005-10-21T15:26:00

2005-10-21T19:32:52Z

I met someone that i think is going to turn out to be a really cool girl. I like her already, we have alot in common and she just seems liek someone who is looking to have a good time and not be a downer all the time. I m just getting to know her now which is really cool. Ive seen her all over campus all year and never had the guts to say a word to her, but she found me and now we are talking. We hung out for the first time yesterday which was fun, wish i had got to talk to her a little more though. She went home for the weekend now, so i guess ill have to wait for sunday to roll around. Its cool though i cant wait. I dont know this feels like it might go somewhere. We will see what happens.

senslessechoes @ 2005-10-18T19:06:00

2005-10-18T23:26:39Z

Guess what life is great!....I feel lost in this world sometimes but i dont care...i got great friends, no no no sorry awesome, fuckin awesome friends....some that are even awesomer....great family....and theres that one person that i can count on to always make life enjoyable...cant say i have ever been to much happier....anyway..about things in life...like school and other such annoying activities that we young adults must partake in.....School is goin pretty good i got an 82 on my last stats/research method test, which i guess kinda sucks because i got a 90 on the first one, but i really did not study for this one(ooops!). Other than that i mean my classes are cake. Cultural Anthropology is a joke. Pre Calc i have taken before so that is also a joke. Social Psych is the only kinda tough one. I only got a 79 on the test, but it only counts for 15% of the grade so its not to bad. Ill ace the paper, because im the shit like that. Work sucks my ass. I mean i fuckin bust my ass there sometimes and i mean i guess i do get some rewards for it but i mean i want more man, lol. I dont care if it sounds greedy. Its not to bad though really i mean i make 10.52 and hour bring home like 350 every two weeks workin like 20 hours a week. It buys me clothes and food and other cool stuff so i guess thats good. I can also do pretty much whatever i want and get a discount on anyhting because i have all those fuckers in check. They know im a hard worker though and thats why i get away with shit. Hmm what else for real world stuff. I guess thats really it lol, school and work are it. Well no, hold on, i am going to start going to the gym again. Me and Steve are actuaally going to start trying to get there on mondays after dinner. Who knows if that will happen though. Not that i really should work out because im skinny enough, but i want to start running again because i just feel lazy and shit. Ok now im done with young adult stuff.
Lets move on to the im a kid stuff. I have download a bigillion songs and movies in the past week im like a fuckin fiend i cant stop. Maybe its because it cost hmm 20 bucks to go to the damn movies. Come on its getting outrageous people. I've been to alot of parties this semester which is cool, met some cool people too. O0o0 did i mention that i have a serious addiction to taking pictures now. Liek i have no idea where it came from, but i cant stop. I like to take just random pictures though and some of my friends..whose names i wont mention..dont seem to like it, because god forbid they werent posing. You look like what you look like get over it. "Is that what I look like in life?"...hahahahahah...good one....shes awesome....But seriously its just a picture. Im not very photogenic and you knwo what i could care less. Not that im saying i look great or anything, but i would have to say that i dont look horrible..right>?..lol...Its just whatever. And man do i have some good pictures. OF EVERYONE!!!...yeah EVERYONE!!!....Alright enough typing for now i think i got carpal tunnel...im out..later

senslessechoes @ 2005-10-15T09:56:00

2005-10-15T14:20:39Z

Awesome... so I heard the one thing from her that makes me feel fuckin great(thats for real not sarcasm)... however i can not disclose the content of our conversation... the world may never know... haha... Yeah so she is a great friend and its all cool;)

Anyway I fuckin drove home last night because my friend Britt was all like o come home come home and i was supposed to leave thursday, but then i remembered that it was Heath and Elyse's suprise party and there was no way in hell i was missing that....so i went home last night to hang out with her and she ditches me for her B/f....i was like WTF mate....whatever though i got to catch up on some sleep anyway...however i am driving home AGAIN tonight...for steve's party but its well worth it...all my friends will be there....good times good times.... although i do have work sunday morning which sucks ass cos im going to have to get up and leave early...sons a bitches...lol...god damn lowe's...i hate workin there but at the same time its great cos i make damn good money...so i do what i gotta to live in style...hahahaha

why can you read me like no one else?
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out
I wish I kept them behind my tongue
I hide behind these words
but I'm coming out

put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them so jealous

all the ways you make my stomach turn
and all the long drives
with my friends blur
and I wish I kept them inside my mind
I hide behind these words

and think of all the places
where you've been lost
and then found...out
in between my sheets
in between the rights and the wrongs

put your hand between
an aching head and an aching world
we'll make them so jealous
we'll make them hate us
aching head and an aching world
think of all the places
where you've been lost and found...out

senslessechoes @ 2005-10-11T23:00:00

2005-10-12T04:08:43Z

And what else would I start learning about in social psych today other than interpersonal relationships. I learned a couple of interesting facts today. One being that similarity is the single most important factor in a relationship. The more alike you and your partner are the longer you will be together. The second was that single best predictor of happiness is the quality of a persons relationship. Well lets see similarity boy we got that, but happiness im not sure where i stand, much less her.

Alright well besides that im going home this weekend which should be fun. Steve is having a party for Elyses birthday which still seems kind of strange I guess since they are still not back together which is also kind of strange. Whatever though it will be awesome. It is always good times at Steve's parties. It seems liek yesterday we were in highschool hanging out at Steves. This weekend should be really good. I'll get to see the TR crowd again, scotty to hotty will be there, and well of course you know who might be there but i wont talk about that.

I cant wait to see my mom too. She is actually doing really well for herself now. She just got promoted at work and might be getting promoted again soon. I feel bad for her though seeing as she is all by herself. I hope she is getting out enough though.

Alright its bed time...

keep it rayllll
~jeff

senslessechoes @ 2005-10-10T20:11:00

2005-10-11T00:40:30Z

Ok so im back for the second time today because well just think why and you will figure it out. People want to talk for one of two reasons either because they are happy or because they are sad, you do the math. Right now i just feel like i suck.... Dont get me wrong i love life, i couldnt be happier with who i am, its just some of the things that happen get me a little down for a couple days....

ill be over it soon...

Anyway, besides the crappiness of liking someone who you dont believe will ever notice you that way, everything here seems to be going fine. Rowan always treated me nice i have some really good friends here. However i really miss my friends back home at the same time. Its all good though i guess. I go to class, do some work, work a couple days a week, go to parties actually this year and meet some new people, so i guess the current situation is jsut somewaht of a kink...that i assume i eventually will have to get over....Whatever though, i am awesome and at least I know it

senslessechoes @ 2005-10-10T10:52:00

2005-10-10T16:22:28Z

Ok well I dont want you to get a bad impression of me, so let me forwarn you that these next couple entries might seem like something out of the EMO realm of hell, but its something i have to do...

Well i guess its not completely necessary but im not sure what to do. Have you ever been there? Waiting and watching that one thing that means so much to you slip through your fingers. I dont know maybe I just have fears i dont know how to deal with. I mean i cant blame everything that happens to me on someone else. At one point or another i have to come to the realization that i control most of what happens to me. However, i wish things could change. She has no clue how wonderful i think she is. I dont even think she has a clue about how wonderful she is. Its just fun to be around her, it doesnt even matter what we do. And believe me i know that sounds chessy and uniform, like everyone says it, but its the truth. Although, i have no way of explaining it because its just a feeling. And whatever so im young, im not talking about marriage here, im talking about just being with someone that can always make you laugh and smile. Shes the person that makes all that happen. And i know what you are going to say...blah blah blah... what about age and what about the current situation?....yeah i know. Listen age is nothing. Its all about being with that one person that makes you happy, and im not talking about LOVE happy because that will come with any relationship or well it should anyway. No, im talking about actual happiness like laughing and joking around. Like being able to call her names, and have her call you one back. Thats happiness. As for the current "situation" theres nothing i can do about that. If things were meant to happen, or happened for a certain reason everything will fall into place. If things werent meant to be then they wont and its something ill have to live with. At least i know that for now i still have her as one of those good friends that is always there for you....

I sewed it up Stitched all these dead end streets
Into the sewn up seams of my heartstrings unwind(unwound)
Like a petal pulled from an open flower.
Surrounds by fields where children sign but don't make a sound and don't

Break it off
This searching for what we may never find
And that says it all.
I hope that we will make it through..

The heartbreak that comes with just living through one day
All the good times that past and all the friends we lose in a lifetime on our way.

Here in this life we seem so lost.
On this side of brightness we don't know where to go.

I hope that we can make it
Through this night.

Look to this side of brightness and you will find me there......

one day, maybe even with her

outtie 5000 ~jeff

Been Thinking Alot Lately

2005-10-09T03:51:41Z

So much shit has happened in the past 3 days and im not quite sure how to deal with it. I thought every thing would be ok, if i just forgot about it, but i can't get my head around you... it fuckin sucks to know that the best things in life dont come without a price. No matter how good something seems most of the time it will come back to hit you in the face. Maybe its just me, but everything i want is out of reach....

to try and calm myself i took a personality test....enjoy the results..lol

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	80%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	53%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Avoidant	\|\|	10%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|	16%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%

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trait snapshot:

social, outgoing, worry free, optimistic, upbeat, tough, likes large parties, makes friends easily, rarely irritated, open, enjoys leadership, trusting, dominant, thrill seeker, strong, does not like to be alone, assertive, mind over heart, confident, controlling, feels desirable, likes the spotlight, loves food, social chameleon, hard working, concerned about others

peace easy
~jeff